Thursday, August 16, 2012

Day 23

So I know I said each day was 2 percent better in my last post but I think ive changed my mind. I've decided it's 1 percent, maybe less. The days sometimes feel like an endless cycle of the exact same thing in terms of recovery. It's frustrating and boring and I'm tired of recovering! There, I feel much better now.

Let's talk teeth. The splint prevents me from really cleaning my top teeth, obviously. I can run my toothbrush over what is exposed a thousand times, but with all the wiring plus the splint they are very, very dirty. This makes me a little sick but I try not to think about it. Which works for a while until I see them in a mirror. My poor teeth! They have yellowed to a degree I hesitate to admit. Even after the splint comes off I know I will struggle with how they look. My next cleaning isn't until October. Ick, that's all I'm gonna say on the matter.
Grin and bear it, right?
So people have been asking me, I bet you're really glad it's over? Or, you know, the worst part is behind you now. Uh, yes and no. The surgery and first week if recovery was the hardest thing ive ever done, but I think getting used to a new face is pretty hard, too. Certainly you feel like yourself more and more as the days pass, until you really see yourself in the mirror. It's weird and scary and kinda cool at the same time. If you look too close (like I do) you start to pick apart all if the little things. Now I see why at one point they thought they should have done the chin implant. Will my nose/nostrils straighten out? I haven't posted my new profile because I don't like it at all.
Is the right side ever going to unfreeze? I guess I'm getting a little impatient. And what's the number one rule we've all learned from pre and post surgery? Yep, be patient. I guess I'll take a dose of my own advice tonight. Sorry for the rant :(. Erin

4 comments:

  1. Erin - I think you look great! Hang in there mate :)

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  2. You look fantastic. Your nose looks the same as 'before' if you ask me :)

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  3. We're not that far apart in our days post. I'm a little bit ahead, but you're clearly winning in the beauty portion of the contest. Sorry about the splint. I didn't get one and apparently I should be thanking God everyday for that. Can I make a few recommendations? 1) Go back in your blog and revisit the past. You'll be reminded of your victories. 2) Take a picture and draw on it where you have no feeling and reduced feeling. I did this and now I know where the "borders" have changed. I can keep better track of incremental gains. (I'm obsessed with getting sensation back.) And finally, 3) Do something new. Either try incorporating an old routine back in your life, push yourself a bit (like drinking in public if you haven't already), or eat something wonderful. Why am I giving you advice like I know much better? I don't. But it's a little support from someone who really empathizes! You're doing so well and it will get better. Good luck. Thanks for your blog!

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  4. Thomas (or is it Tom), thank you, i really do appreciate the encouragement. And thanks for making me laugh, your posts in general just crack me up! You are very lucky about the splint, did u have a palate expansion? Pretty sure that's the trigger. Anyways, great advice for a whiner! Have a good weekend

    Thanks Ellie and Chloe :)

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